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Monthly Archives: September 2009
I recently got an interesting email that made my day:
My name is [REDACTED] and I am currently working as a consultant biologist for the Wildlife Conservation Society (WCS) in Kabul, Afghanistan. I hope you don’t mind me writing out of the blue – I received your contact information via the Tree of Life web project and Flickr. com websites, and would like to request your permission to use one of your excellent photographs of the Gazelle species (Gazella subgutturosa) for a WCS/Government educational project in Afghanistan.
In summary, WCS is working with the Government of Afghanistan to list a number of threatened animals and plants on the country’s first Protected Species List. So far, 33 wild species have been formally declared as Protected, therefore prohibiting any hunting or trading of the species within Afghanistan (see: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/8091095.stm). One of the species to be likely listed as Protected in the Second round of listing is the Gazella subgutturosa. We are planning to produce a poster to present all these species to the Government and wider public; and it would be fantastic if we could use your photograph to represent this species on the poster (with full copyright details of yourself included). If this would be at all possible and you have the high resolution version available of the attached photograph, or you have any questions at all, please don’t hesitate to let me know – I would be very happy to send you a picture of the finished poster too if you would like?
Many thanks, in advance, and best regards.
I love being able to help in situations like this, so I reprocessed the photo and sent along a high res version along with my blessings (and formal permission to use); i may only help a little, but it’s great to be able to help at all.
To me, this is an aspect of paying forward; doing stuff that helps others not because of any expectation of a return but because it seemed the right thing to do. It has a nice karmic benefit that if someone doesn’t follow through, you never know, so you’re not disappointed in your fellow mankind — which keeps you from deciding that doing things like this aren’t worth it….
For the curious, here’s the updated version of the photo:
The real payback for doing these things? Sometimes it’s the knowledge that you can, and that it helps. Maybe in a little way, but the world is a little better because of it. And how do you know it helps?
because sometimes someone sends you an email like this one:
You don’t actually know me–but you’ve been helpful and kind several times to me.
I love the new design at Chuqui 3.0. I’m glad to see you’re at Palm–I’m on my second Palm, a TX, which I wanted just for reading e-books on planes, and ended up using for lots more.
Plaidworks was one of the first places I contacted when a client wanted a Web site, back in the mid 90s. You gave me helpful, friendly, thoughtful advice. Your blog was the second or third one I ever saw, and has been a model that I’ve sent people to over and over.
And you’ve had consistently good advice about email lists and community management.
I hope you and Palm succeed. And I love the bird pictures!
And it’s things like that that leave you grinning for days…
the NHLPA firing Jim Kelly: If you needed evidence that the PA was in trouble, you have it. My take on this is simple: the firing was done by a very small group of people without consulting the larger membership. Effectively, it was the thirty team reps — and it looks to me like a small group manipulated them with carefully crafted and biased information that wasn’t distributed ahead of the meeting and where the team reps weren’t given time to think it through or consult with the rest of the players they represented.Was it really so urgent that the NHLPA COULD NOT wait two weeks for camps to open, when all of the players would be in town and the team reps could discuss the information with them and make them all part of the process?
well, the membership seems to be figuring out they got gamed:
It’s possible, according to player sources, that one or more NHLPA members will insist on an immediate, thorough, and independent investigation of not only the process that led to Kelly’s dismissal but also of those who perpetrated it. Clearly, some players are finally waking up to smell the reality that, as one veteran told me last week, “Paul got sewered.’’
The stench has reached the membership, and it is leading them to do something about it.
And something tells me this is both going to get really ugly before it gets better, and it’s going to totally screw over the effectiveness of the player’s association for a good period of time — at a time when they desperately need to have their act together before the start of the next CBA negotiation. And hopefully, the membership will realize that it’s because a few people were willing to destroy the union rather than let it be run in a way they didn’t like — and deal with those people appropriately. I can name one obvious name right from the top… But do I really need to?
I’m a bit late to the party, perhaps, but some thoughts on the Heatley trade.
My initial reaction was — and it somewhat surprised me — that since Marleau wasn’t part of the trade, that maybe it was okay. Heatley still has to prove to me he’s bringing the right attitude, but honestly, Doug Wilson’s a much better judge of that than I am, and I’ll give him the benefit of the doubt until proven otherwise. And honestly? It fits in line with something I said back in 2008, which Puck Daddy was nice enough to dredge up for me and point to.
My bottom line is that I’m happier because the trade didn’t involve Marleau, but I still need to see Heatley bring the right attitude and the right game, and if he does, then this is a great trade. if he doesn’t — Wilson will have to deal with it.
I’m not unhappy at seeing Michalek and Cheechoo go. Well, I’ll miss them because I enjoyed watching them play, especially Cheechoo, but I always felt Michalek had a “next step” he never figured out how to use consistently, and I think we saw the best of Cheechoo and he had no real upside. With any luck, new teams and fresh starts will help them, but they weren’t going to get better in San jose.
One question brought up to me, since I’d mentioned Larionov and his demanding his way off the team — why do I give Larionov a pass on that and not Heatley?
I had to think about that one a bit, and here’s why: Larionov had a strong track record as a player for his ethics and his committment. he was also a winner with multiple organizations. Because of that when he speaks up about something taht’s wrong — and time really proved him right in San Jose — you listen.
Heatley doesn’t have that. Heatley’s proven that in the NHL, he can score lots of goals, but he’s never proven himself as a winner. he’s also indicated through his actions in Ottawa that when he doesn’t get his way, he pouts and quits. He now has to prove himself NOT to be a quitter — and only time will tell about that. Right now, though, he doesn’t have that track record to stand on, and his actiosn the last few months put him in a negative light to many of us. He has to prove that wrong. And I’m willing to let him, but he doesn’t get a free ride, because he hasn’t earned one yet.
A couple of quick hits while I wait for backup #1 to finish.
Looks like I’ll be in SoCal the end of the month visiting mom. Normally I don’t advertise my trips south because they’ve tended to be kamikazee raids with no time for anything but family. This one might (or might not) be different, and I’m hoping maybe there’ll be some free time while I’m there. I’m hoping to get in a bit more extensive birding than I have the last few trips while migration is on, and try out a few new locations I’ve been researching.
And I finally (finally? hah-hah) upgraded to Snow Leopard this evening. Overall, things have gone pretty well so far; I made two separate backups PLUS a time machine backup, then erased the laptop disk and installed from scratch and then used the migration tool to copy my files over. The only glitch: I lost a couple of hours because the airport interface simply didn’t want to the time capsule, I couldn’t get a reliable connection, especially DNS. The third time I restarted the airport device, things seem to have finally settled in, and now it looks like I’m working properly. I’m thinking a downrev version of Parallels was getting in the way here, but why it took upgrading Parallels and THEN restarting the Time Capsule, I dunno, but that seemed to be what resolved it. go figure.
The printer drivers all came in fine; haven’t tried the scanner yet. Nothing’s broken but I haven’t tried a lot (well, beyond cussing at the wifi…). Instead, I fired up the backups, and I’m now almost done with making a bootable copy of the new disk — which, if you’re counting at home means two bootable copies of Leopard plus a timemachine backup, AND two bootable copies of Snow Leopard (the laptop and an external firewire). Once that’s done, I’ll configure up Time Machine and let it run overnight to get started with Snow Leopard.
Yes, I am anal and paranoid about backups. Thanks for noticing. Of course, I also sleep well at night. (and I haven’t mentioned I also have about 50 gigs of data synced up on S3 via JungleDisk, so my itunes and photo libraries are updated nightly offsite…)
One neat feature I found: the battery status menubar item has been ehnaced so if your battery is sub-optimal, it warns you. Mine is only recharging to about 52% — it’s due for replacement — and it was a nice surprise to see that Apple is actually telling me that now, not requiring a third party tool to see the battery health.
And things seem faster — or at least crisper — than before. I’m pretty happy with things overall. At least to start.
On the other hand, the upgrade to the new iPhone software; I’ve had 3-4 random shutdowns of the phone since I’ve done that. Just all of a sudden non-responsive and requiring a power-up cycle. (and yes, I’m now living with multiple phones — three, if you must ask; thank you long-term contracts and since Laurie’s iPhone is on my contract as well, it was just too complicated to try to port my current mobile number to a Pre in the short term. Besides — ahem — my home office is a Sprint dead zone and has been for a few years since someone in a car took out the closest tower and from what I can tell, it was never replaced… Eventually I’ll sort all of this out, I’m sure.
And — grr — it looks like I’ve lost wifi connectivity again. back to the ethernet cable…
We asked Scott Emmert, director of media relations for the Sharks, about the snubs and he encourages fans “not read into them.” He said that just because a particular player isn’t listed doesn’t mean they aren’t going to be featured in another promotional venture for the season. One look at the online season-ticket info page reinforces that: Marleau and Nabokov are still among the players pictured.
Many years ago, the Sharks put Igor Larionov on the cover of the in-game magazine, just as Igor and Kevin Constantine got into a fight that led to Larionov demanding a trade and ending up a Red Wing (and winning a stanley cup….). The Sharks were left handing out magazines for a number of games that featured a player that was no longer on the team, and had left rather loudly and unhappy. It rankled the fans, and it rankled the Sharks.
And since then they’ve been careful to not put players on long-term promotional items (like tickets) unless they were sure that they were going to be sharks (barring unexpected things). So while I normally recommend not reading too much into things like ticket pictures, in this case, the Sharks have a track record of being careful — if Marleau and Nabokov aren’t on the tickets, then someone must think these players have a chance of not being here by the trade deadline. Current “three way marleau to the kings” rumor notwithstanding, one shouldn’t read into this as a short-term probability as much as a long-term possibility. Doug Wilson is clearly looking to make sure the team is fixed for the playoffs (if it already isn’t), not opening day…
This seems to have been a good summer to decide to get away from hockey for a while. Last season was a lot of fun, and a lot of great things happened — good attendance, the Winter Classic in Chicago that Laurie went to, great playoffs (except for the Sharks. sigh), improved TV ratings. The NHL came out of the lockout looking like it had things going well and this last season showed me it was building on the momentum.
And now, here we are, almost at the start of training camp, and what’s been going on?
- The Dany Heatley “I want out” whine-fest.
- The Coyotes saga
- Jim Balsillie
- The Versus/DirecTV pissing match
- The NHLPA firing of their leader
And last — and perhaps least –
- The Sharks playoff collapse and off-season moves…
That is, unfortunately, more than enough grief for one league in one year, and we haven’t even touched on the economic downturn the league faces this year.
What’s all this mean for the league? Some thoughts:
Dany Heatley: Just what I really want to hear about; another spoiled athlete who demanded lots of money and a no-trade clause bailing on his team as soon as someone doesn’t wipe his nose when he sneezes. Gee, that sucks. Dear Dany: Please shut up and play hockey. One reason I love hockey is that athletes like you are really rare in the game. I hope that never changes.
Dany Heatley Part 2: Dear Doug Wilson. Without asking whether or not the rumors of the Sharks trying to get Heatley are true or not, an earnest question: ARE YOU CRAZY? He can score goals, but he hasn’t shown his ability to be a winner (as opposed to a whiner, which he’s proven quite nicely). He’s a chemistry problem waiting to happen, and bringing him to San Jose will be the worst mistake the Sharks could make since, um, Ray Sheppard and Craig Janney. Please don’t.
The Coyotes Saga: What a mess. It is, of course, easy to blame Bettman, but in reality, Bettman was working the ownership into an agreement to sell, and Moyes decided to slip the knife in from behind and jump to bankruptcy court with Balsillie. Why? Because Balsillie structured a deal that got money back to Moyes and cut his losses, even if that deal (as we’re showing) fraks over the Coyotes, the city of Glendale, the League, Coyotes fans, hockey fans in general, the players, especially the Coyotes players, and other creditors of the Coyotes. This is standard procedure for both guys — don’t worry about anyone else, just take what you want and let the court sort it out.
And once it hits bankruptcy court, it’s a crapshoot for everyone. Moyes and Balsillie may have thought they had this scoped out, but the bankruptcy judge has an amazing amount of leeway and isn’t necessarily interested in playing the fool. I’ve been quite impressed with how the judge his handling this case — including a very careful and obvious intention to not end up in legal casebooks as the person setting any kind of significant precedent here. He’s handled this like the live grenade it is in the legal world, and I give him a lot of credit for moving carefully and conservatively.
What can be presumed about the outcome? About the only thing I can guarantee is that at this point, anything coming out of the bankruptcy court will head right to appeals court. Every time I see a media person or a blogger say “we’ll have some answers at the hearing today!” I chuckle, because this is just the beginning. Sit back and pop popcorn. We’re still in Act I. Moyes showed that the legal agreements he had with the league only mattered while he benefitted from them, and then he did what he wanted — and the league will ultimately clean up the mess, while the fans will blame Bettman. Wanna know what a “bad owner” is in a league? Here’s one.
Jim Balsillie: When you look at it that way, it should become obvious why the league isn’t interested in having him as an owner. Too many fans only see the possibility of a team in southern ontario or that he has lots of money and declare him to be a good owner — and forget that one part of being a good owner is a willingness to work within the rules of the league and work with the other owners to make the game better. Balsillie’s failed miserably at those aspects, multiple times, and again here with the Coyotes. So why are people surprised the other owners see him as a problem?
Let’s not forget that Mark Cuban wanted to buy the Cubs. Given his — attitude — as an owner of the Mavericks, whether you appreciate his candor or not (I generally do…), was I surprised that major league baseball made damn sure his bid wasn’t ever seriously in the running? You can complain that the owners group is a “club” — but there are reasons for that, including a need to cooperate for the good of the game. Has Balsillie ever shown any hint he’s willing or interested in diong that?
I think Balsillie owning an NHL team would be a huge problem for the league over time, for the same reason Moyes owning the Coyotes did: ultimately, they are similar types of owners, ones that have no problem screwing over the league (and fans, and players, and everyone associated with it) to get what they want. How is that good for hockey?
And before my friends in Canada come raining down scorn for trashing the guy — I’m fully in favor of a team in Southern Ontario. Just not owned by Balsillie. And preferably not in Hamilton (I’m far from convinced the $100 million upgrade will turn that arena into a real NHL building, any more than $100 million would have turned the Cow Palace into anything other than an ugly old barn with lipstick), but perhaps more in the Kingston area. Not gonna happen, probably, but I’d like to see it. My worry about Hamilton is that a team there would affect the Sabres, and that’s a bad thing. A team in Kingston might draw more from Leaf territory, and the best thing you can do to make the Leafs more competitive is to make them less fat and happy and complacent… Of course, the Leafs owners wouldn’t agree to that easily…
The Versus/DirecTV pissing match: my short answer: pay zero attention until the season starts. Negotiations like this, and labor negotiations, never get settled until the very last minute (or some time after it…). Everything until then is posturing by both sides. I’ll take “one week into the season” in the pool for when this gets solved. Personal opinion — I think Versus is being somewhat too greedy in their demands, so my sympathies are somewhat with DirecTV here. And frankly, I’d probably be a lot more annoyed at not having Versus if they paid a little attention to the West Coast once in a while. Here in Sharks territory, Versus is pretty useless with the eastern conference lineups and games that are mostly over when you get home from work… So I don’t see it as a great loss, personally.
The NHLPA firing Jim Kelly: If you needed evidence that the PA was in trouble, you have it. My take on this is simple: the firing was done by a very small group of people without consulting the larger membership. Effectively, it was the thirty team reps — and it looks to me like a small group manipulated them with carefully crafted (and biased) information that wasn’t distributed ahead of the meeting and where the team reps weren’t given time to think it through or consult with the rest of the players they represented.
Was it really so urgent that the NHLPA COULD NOT wait two weeks for camps to open, when all of the players would be in town and the team reps could discuss the information with them and make them all part of the process?
No. Which implies that whoever orchestrated this knew that if this information was distributed to the membership and evaluated, it would be rejected. So this was an orchestrated coup by a group that knew it could manipulate the team reps and knew the membership at large wouldn’t buy in, so they made sure the membership didn’t get a voice.
If the general membership lets them get away with this, they get what they deserve. It’s clear there are serious factions within the union, and at least one faction is willing to destroy the union rather than let some other group run it. And they may well be succeeding. Given that so many players in the union really don’t care as long as the paychecks keep coming, if the NHLPA thinks it is going to succeed with a hard-ass attitude, then the owners have to be thrilled at this. Kelly knew that, and had a plan I really liked for moving things forward — but he got taken out back and shot in the middle of the night (literally).
And I think the union will get what it deserves out of this, and is going to be royally unhappy when it happens.
And finally –
The Sharks playoff collapse and off-season moves…
I’m pretty satisfied with what Wilson has done in the off-season. I’m happy we do NOT have Heatley. I’m willing to bet that Wilson tried just hard enough to land “the Monster” to come in second, which is a nice way to put pressure on Nabokov without actually having to commit the money. Stripping Marleau (and everyone) of the “C” and “A” is an interesting tactic, also.
Fans (and media) complaining about the lack of the “blockbuster” move to shake up the team are being impatient. Wilson has until the start of the playoffs, not the start of the season, to fix this team. What he’s done instead is spend the summer doing things that cause the players to stew on the failure rather than write it off — and I’m sure he’s waiting to see if the players respond by showing up ready and angry and committed. Any player that doesn’t will likely get purged. San Jose is a franchise where leaks simply don’t happen. this summer there have been leaks and statements — aimed at two key guys, Marleau and Nabokov — that seem clearly designed to put the pressure on them to respond, and respond on the ice. It’s now up to them to respond. If they do, the Sharks get better without disrupting the roster. If they don’t — Wilson has his answer, and changes will be made. The fact is, Wilson is still evaluating those players, and evaluating them the only way that really matters: by waiting to see how they respond on the ice.
Fans (and media) have also complained that “all” Wilson’s done is make changes on the third and fourth lines. That’s correct. The fans (and media) also forget that the playoff failure was in large part because the third and fourth lines fell apart and played really, really badly; that failure has been addressed. I’m sorry to see Grier go, Goc go, and Roenick retire — but all three are clearly the right moves.
Also the right move: trading Erhoff. I’ve generally been a strong supporter of his, and early last season he was playing amazing hockey, but over the season, he went from playing amazing hockey to playing inconsistent, enigmatic hockey. I have no idea why, but some nights, he was most notable for what he didn’t do — it’s one thing to be Mike Rathje and play 22 minutes a night and never be noticed, because Rat was always a shutdown guy. It’s another to be Erhoff and play 20 minutes and be noticed for a lack of expected offense and for those really visible mistakes. His ultimate failure in San Jose was a lack of consistency, and all of his good play kept getting sidetracked by those really bad shifts every game or two. I’m ready to see if a fresh start on a new team lets him grow past that. So, evidnetly, was Doug Wilson…
So I’ll give the Sharks off-season a B for now. Ask me again ten games into the regular season.
- When I went to work for Palm, I knew that it was going to eat a lot of time and energy and I needed to focus on my work to make sure we all succeeded and delivered the best product we could.
- Hmm. I need to upgrade my installation of WordPress. Be right back.
- I was right. It did eat a lot of time and energy, and it was the right decision to not try to split my loyalties between my job and my not-job. I think we’ve done a pretty damn good job of delivering — so far. There’s still a lot to do.
- Oops. WordPress has eight plug-ins that need updating.
- When I sat down with myself to start talking about the next phase of the blog design I wanted to implement, this voice in the back of my head started whispering to me “YOU IDIOT. HOW MANY TIMES IS GETTING THE WEIGHT OFF GOING TO BE THE NEXT PROJECT, ANYWAY?”
- No, make that 11.
- I had nothing to say. I know that shocks people who know me.
- That voice in the back of my head was right, too. I realized it was time to either get serious about it, or give up and admit I was eating myself to death. It was actually a tougher decision than you might think — but I got serious about my weight.
- Once you stop for a while, it gets really easy to say “oh, it can wait until tomorrow”.
- Surprisingly enough — many times, it can.
- In the grand scheme of the internet, the Great Controversy of today is forgotten (in favor of the next Great Controversy of today), and it’s really easy to convince yourself that it’s not worth the energy to dig in and do research and try to discuss the Great Controversy intelligently.
- Since the primary driver of my eating issues is stress, the primary solution to getting away from the eating issues is to remove stress from my life. The best way to do that was to remove all of the optional (read: “self-induced”) stress about things like finding time to blog, meeting artificial deadlines on blog redesigns, adding stress over trying to set up a photography business and things that if they didn’t happen NOW instead of LATER (or even EVER), only I would care.
- Especially since “Intelligently” seems to be optional in many parts of the net…
- Doctor Who
- When my dad got sick and died, I knew I needed to be there to support mom and help her through the transition and get the estate settled. It started for me at Christmas, we buried him in June, and the estate work finally ended in October. That’s basically an entire year that’s a blur at best.
- And afterward, I realized I was exhausted and miserable, because I’d played the tough guy and hadn’t given myself time to grieve and transition. There’s a reason I put on 30+ pounds in about 6 months and joined the 400 club.
- Have I mentioned recently that sometimes I’m an idiot? Yeah, major revelation. Alert the media. Oh, wait. We are the media now. Or something like that.
- Warehouse 13
- Pop quiz: sit down and name the five most important things in your life.
- Somewhere along the way, I decided all of my photography work was crap. crap crap crap crap. Ugly, unadulterated crap. I hated taking photographs.
- About this point, if I were a baseball player, the color guy would be asking pointed questions about when I’d break out of the slump, and my manager would be checking with the GM about sending me to AAA.
- My list of the top five most important things in my life: my wife, because without her I’d be dead today, and because of her I see the future as something to relish; my mom, bceause, well, she’s my mom and I am what I am today in large part because she taught me to be me; my job, because I enjoy it, I think we’re making a difference, and because it pays the bills and mortgage (and frankly, I think people who pretend that something that sucks up a third of their lives isn’t important are fooling themselves); myself, because, well, if I’m not important to myself, why should I be important to anyone else? — and finally, my potential — which I believe I’m just finally starting to really understand and appreciate.
- That could possibly be the most stupid thing a 50 year old person could say. And I stand behind if fully.
- Battlestar Galactica. Stargate. Eureka.
- Fable and Fable II
- One of my “projects” was going through dad’s things and trying to make sense of it all. He was that wonderful combination of a packrat and a person who never actually filed anything or described why he kept it. I found documents of his time in Europe working for Stars and Stripes during the airlift, and later publishing Overseas Weekly and tweaking the military authority in post WW II Germany. I also found phone books from the 70′s and endless reams of blank paper — and a few books of Green Stamps.
- Sacred II
- I kept finding myself pushing myself into his stuff, and emotionally not ready to actually deal with it. Eventually I figured it out and stopped. Pretty literally with piles where I left them around my office and where I’d originally started setting up a photo studio.
- That kinda screwed up my plans to do photography in the studio. For some odd reason, boxes of “stuff” doesn’t help studying flash and macro photography.
- Not that I had the energy or will to try.
- Top Chef.
- I finally realized I needed a break. I needed to give myself permission to DO NOTHING. Just rest. Relax. Recharge the batteries.
- Elder Scrolls.
- Time to answer the pop quiz: did you lie to yourself about what was most important? No? Really? So why aren’t you putting your time and energy into the things on that list? If the things you call your priorities aren’t where you’re setting your priorities — well, that’s a problem, no?
- Have you ever gone a week without a rationalization?
- I don’t do “do nothing” well. My life has always been about doing stuff, building stuff, being involved in stuff — busy. By choice. So I had to teach myself.
- John Scalzi
- It was actually difficult at first — not watching the tv AND writing emails. Not sitting at the desk AND being with Laurie (well, sort of, if sitting halfway across a room is “being with”).
- Terry Goodkind. Tad Williams. Charles de Lint. Jack Whyte.
- You really didn’t want to hear me whine and bitch about stuff in my life anyway, right? Yeah, I thought so.
- The funny thing I learned was that nobody died, the world didn’t end, people didn’t throw stones or accuse me of ignoring my obligations — doing nothing was actually OKAY. Wow. Who knew?
- And by Doing Nothing, I ended up happier with myself, significantly less stressed, and I started enjoying life again.
- And — surprise (sort of) — in the last year, I’ve lost 75 pounds. Since I started seriously working on it in April, 55. I still have a long way to go — 75 pounds is a lot; I just have to do that twice more. The difference is stunning (but that’s a different post) in how I view myself and how I enjoy life.
- A couple of weeks ago, that voice in the back of my head started whispering “HEY, IDIOT. YOU GONNA SIT ON YOUR LAZY BUTT ALL EVENING? TIME TO GET BACK AT IT”.
- I ignored it for a while, but it was right. It was no longer a reason to Do Nothing, it was an excuse. I was feeling the itch to start writing, start posting — start creating and contributing again.
- By the way, my photography doesn’t suck any more. I’ve been kind of ignoring it a lot because of work and my committment to Do Nothing. I’m really ready to start pushing myself to get better again.
- There are still definitely challenges in my life. A new one cropped up this week that’s going to take some attention, but I feel ready to handle it. And whatever challenges come along later.
- I knew once I started blogging and writing again that I was committing myself to getting back in a rhythm, back on a schedule. I wanted to make sure I was ready, so I’ve spent a couple of weeks thinking through what to write about and making sure this was the right thing to do.
- I am. I’m back. And I’m ready for the challenges that lie ahead.